I went to find out several things, about Kylara and about Quesx's soul.  The question
was what he valued more than a soul.  

Very few people would dare tred upon Arawn's Tower let alone ride a huge, winged black
stallion into his very throneroom.  But this visitor had nothing to fear from him, there
was nothing left for him to take from her.

He was waiting for her of course, he always was, he always knew her mind. 'Hello.' He greeted her simply.

Nodding she dismounted the winged horse she's long ago dubbed 'Dirge'.

Not waiting for her to say anything, Arawn demanded, 'What are you doing here?' It was a
smoothly silent question, only faintly menacing if the answer should be the wrong one.

The sidhe woman shrugged and answered him blankly. 'Curiousity got the better of me I
suppose.' She took the time to look around now to make sure no one else was around.

'Curiousity about what?' He asked with a slightly raised brow in her direction.

'Several things,' She replied off handedly. 'I'm still alive so that answers one
question.'

The god of Death nodded slightly. 'It does.' If it was question or statement was unclear.

She nodded and continued. 'But someone asked me a question, and it's been bugging me, so
I thought I'd go to the source.'

Conceeding to that he nodded. 'Alright.'

'I doubt you will tell me, but what do you value more than a soul?' She gave the
question in such a way it seemed it didn't really matter to her, but her eyes gave away
the questions importance to her.

Arawn looked almost amused. 'Quesx's happiness of course.'

Lilith raised a brow in surprise as he stabbed right at the source of her coming to the
tower.  No matter how often it happened, it shocked and greatly bothered her that he
could know her so well.

'You're obviously not asking for yourself' He commented to her at her look.

'I have mine back, why would I be asking for myself?' She pressed her lips into a tight
line.

'Exactly.' He didn't sound like he was making a point, just pointing out the
obvious. 'You left me for reasons I don't understand, I doubt you even do.' He did sound
almost perplexed at that.

Her only response was a faint smile.  Truth be told, which she'd never tell anyone,
she'd regretted it the second she'd sent the letter, and she never knew why she had
written or sent it, her best guess even to that day was it had been for Loragain, but he
was gone now, no longer there to help or guide her.  Without him she was a damned as she
ever had been.

Arawn didn't wait anyway as he went on. 'But Quesx left because she wanted to follow the
goddess of suffering. So I obliged her and helped her suffering.'

She couldn't help but see the perfect symetry to that, to even admire it. Once she would
have stood behind it, but Quesx was her clansister. 'Ah, that makes sense.' She almost
frowned as she said it, having said it without meaning to.

Arawn smiled almost proudly, if at his punishment or her grating admission of favor for
it wasn't clear. 'I'm glad you approve.'

She gave another weak smile at that, trying hard not to smile as if he'd given her his
blessing.

'You're still female.' He commented suddenly, surprising her.

Arching a brow she blinked at him. 'Indeed....why wouldn't I be?' She suddenly had the
sinking feeling that was an opening to make that change real fast.  Gods had been known
to make Its out of mortals who wronged them.  And if anyone had wronged Arawn, it was
Lilith.  She peered at him intently, she wouldn't run in any case, even if one could run
from a god, she was too proud for that.

Arawn looked like he might laugh at the expression on her face. 'It takes alot of balls
to come back after what you did and seek the return of yet another soul'

Realizing where he was going with the comment she smirked. 'I always had more guts then
brains.' She shook her head.

Arawn smiled at her approvingly.

'I shouldn't push my luck, but then that curiousity thing comes back.' Not that she had
any luck to push, and in a way, she hoped she would and he'd take his curse off her.

'Oh, what else are you curious about?' He asked.

She shifted slightly. She asked for her sister, now she asked for herself. 'I wanted to
know, I know you said she'd be looked after, and I don't want to know where she is or
anything, but how is she?' She waited as he stared at her in silence for some time and
nodded in acceptance. 'I take that as you're not going to tell me.'

The he finally spoke up. 'She is well.' Is all he said.

Lilith smiled faintly but before she could say anything else he went on.

'It would be best if you do not enquire again, it will only make it harder for you to
deal with it' He told her.

'Glad to see you care.' She looked like she might smirk but just sighed instead.

Arawn looked as about as surprised as a god could. 'Of course I care, the welfare of my
child is at stake.' It sounded almost like a lecture.

Raising a brow in surprise she asked. 'You actually care for her then?' She peered at
him.  She didn't expect him to even raise her let alone care for her.

His next words hit like a blade. 'Of course, more than you did.' But that wasn't the end
of it. 'You traded her away like an object.'

She closed her fists into tight balls until her long nails caused blood to start to drip
out and to the floor at her feet. But she made no move to say anything back to him.

'Don't worry, she will be told how much her mother cared for her when she comes of age.'
He said on a lighter note.

'I bet.' She muttered under her breath.

Arawn grined demonically.

'And why would it matter to you so much, this one child, that you have to take her away
from her mother, and now you tell me to make her hate me aswell?' She eyed him like one
would a snake about to strike.

Arawn smiled evilly, but didn't answer her.

'Is it to make me suffer as you said it was for Quesx?' She asked, needing some sort of
answer from him.

'Not really.' He made a slight move of his shoulders that might have been a shrug.

She demanded 'Then why?'

'You gave the child up voluntarily with little resistance, she couldn't have meant much
to you.' He told her. 'So, how does it really make you suffer?'

Shaking her head she muttered. 'How would you ever understand even if i tried to explain
it.'  And she wouldn't have. Before she gave birth she wouldn't have understood it.  She
had agreed, and she hadn't cared.  Not until after her daughter was born, not after
she'd looked up at her for the first time.

'I have my reasons. you made your choice, you are due to live with it.' He sounded
clearly like he was getting tired with her questions now.

'You gave me little choice.' She retorted, angry now.

Arawn replied. 'You had a choice. You chose yourself over either your husband or your
child.'

She just smirked at that. He was right, but she'd never even admit that to herself, it
was too much like saying she was wrong.

'You could have said no.' Arawn said.

'And live like that for the rest of my life?  I think not.' She looked disgusted at the
idea.  If she was going to not be allowed to die, she wasn't going to spend eternity
with no soul aswell.

Arawn smirked now. 'Like i said, you chose what was best for yourself, rather than what
was best for your husband, or your child. A totally selfish decision.' He verbally waved
her off now. 'I do not expect to have to answer to you about the wellbeing of the child
anymore. I told you she would be cared for, and she will.'

The sidhe flared her nostrils and grabbed the reigns of her stallion and stalked out of
the tower for the last time.